Wednesday 2/4/2009
Posted Feb 5, 2009 1:50am
Today has been a really good day for both T-Man and I. ;) When I woke up this morning I checked my carepage and had an extreme amount of messages from people I didn't even know, saying that they saw my story on the news and how much it inspired and touched them. Some mothers even related with me on what I've been going through emotionally and physically because there kids have gone through some similar trials. When I was getting ready to go to the hospital I got a call from fox 13 news wondering if they could come do a story on this rare cancer and of course I was all for it. When I was walking into the hospital I felt like I was in a dream again i couldn't believe what has been going on the past couple of weeks. It still is such a shock to me that my 5 month old baby has cancer and has to go through Chemo and radiation. It is truly a nightmare. But I have made a rule, when you are in Travyn's room you cannot say the "C" word (cancer) because it is not welcome anywhere and especially in my baby's body and its time for the cancer to pack up and leave his body. It is not WELCOME WHAT SO EVER. The "C word" might as well just throw in the towel and give up this fight because WE WILL WIN!!!!
So I get to the room and my dad is leaning over his crib talking to him and getting him to smile. My Dad had some great news for me about his "Staph Infection" He told me that the "Infection Specialists" came by and said it looked GREAT. They took some blood draws and tested the blood count to make sure the infection is getting better. The antibiotics are doing there job very well and is tackling the infection. So in other words: WE ARE WINNING THE BATTLE WITH THE INFECTION!!!!! YEE-HAA!!! Right when Travyn saw me, it was the cutest thing ever. He started to do his cry when he wants to be picked up. He started kicking his legs and his arms were flying all over the place. IT JUST MADE ME SO HAPPY that he stills reconizes me as his mother. You could tell he just wanted the love and comfort from his mommy!! I thrive off the validation that my son gives me. This might sound dumb but It makes me feel wanted and needed at all times and I LOVE IT!!! That little boy makes me feel so important and makes me realize that I do have a purpose in this life and a very important role as his mother, i wouldn't change it for the world.
Other then that Travyn is doing so good. I got him to giggle while the news was filming me. It was so cute. Travyn is scheduled for a "Swallow Study" again this week (hopefully) and if he passes it they will pull his feeding tube up to his tummy so when they feed him he will actually be able to feel a full belly and OH BOY does Travyn love a full warm tummy....LOLI will keep you all updated.
Thank you all so much for ALL your love and support and MOST important your needed prayers!!!!
AND TO ALL THE AMAZING PEOPLE THAT I DONT KNOW THAT LEFT ME A MESSAGE ON HERE, I JUST WANT TO THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. YOUR STORIES AND MESSAGES REALLY ENCOURAGE ME AND KEEP ME STRONG.....THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS.